I do not know what to make of things

I think I have been in this state for a very long time.

Today, a door finally opened for me and all it remains is for me to walk through it.
Unfortunately, the door is one that leads to a rocky uncertain road.

I tried to talk to my loved one and that opened up another can of worms. Unknown to me, my choices have also affected him badly and I feel doubly guilty about it all. It is fine and dandy if I were to suffer for my own choices but it hurts really bad when the very people that care for me are hurt by it too.

I bought myself a few days time but I will need to deal with things swiftly and decisively.

I am in a massive bind.

Holy Father, this would be a very very good time to show me your power in my life.

With God all things are possible.