look at how life has changed

I finally decided to take a break from work. By this, I meant that I resigned from work without looking for another one, stayed at home to just rest and do whatever it is that I want to do.

It felt really good in the very beginning because I finally had enough sleep. I finally had no deadlines looming and no responsibilities, no work related worries in the back of my mind that bugged me. For once in a very long time, I was free from all the mental and psychological shackles that bound me.

I believe that sometime in the future I will look back at this time at thank god that he gave me this time of rest because he was preparing me for something. He was giving me this lull for a reason. I could read the books I wanted to read, watch all the anime that I want, sleep all I want, play all the games that I want.

I also started to study the Bible a lot more, listened to sermons online and perhaps gotten to know the LORD a little better. Whilst I don't like to physically be at church and be subjected to all the hugs and handshakes from people that I do not know, I do want to be part of the sermons and worship.

I find it wierd that people are suddenly so friendly to everyone because it is church and then pretend that they do not exist after. I have also seen the examples from a friend that has walked the same path before and later get burnt out by doing too much "services" to the church. Well, churches are made of people and people have all sorts of agendas.

Of course, this is not that churches are bad. They are excellent places for community, service and worship as they should be. But like any other organization, they are subjected to the vagaries of a human organization.

For the moment, I prefer online sermons and worship rather than the physical ones. I'd rather not have the pressure to join in more things than I am willing to do.

About my blogging preferences

I am listening to "my ding-a-ling" by Chuck Berry right now and happily chuckling along with the tongue in cheek lyrics of the song... kekeke

Yet again, I have happily forgotten about the existence of this little blog of mine with very few postings. Maybe when I have time... which is like never, I will spend some time revamping and updating this blog to make it more thematic.

I've always wanted to restructure one of my blogs (yes... indeed, I have more than one weblog) into one that is thematic in nature. I've always wanted to do a commentary type of blog... One that suits my current interests of the period instead of using this an a complaint platform.

I must say that as a blogger, I have matured in my thinking and gotten more cautious and prudent about what goes online. A couple of years ago, blogs were all the rage, governments hadn't attempted to regulate the internet and people were pretty much putting everything and anything online.... mostly for free.

Nowadays, things have changed.

Information which are useful and searchable are often now downloaded for a fee... compared to being free not too long ago. Search engines now throw up advertisements by advertisers instead of really going by the relevance of topic. The focus has gradually shifted.

In the early days, I was often blunt and honest in my other blog. Nowadays, I self censor and put on only things that I people will not find objectionable. My blog is like an online journal for myself and a few friends that know of the blogs existence. It's not something that I want to use for making a big statement.

Bloggers have been fired from their jobs, thrown into jail by the governments of today in the little area of the world in which I live. Although on the bright side, some celebrity bloggers have made a good living off their blogs, some bloggers turned politicians have made use of their "new media" power to change the status quo.

Of course in the world of new media, the biggest icon of all would be the current President of the United States, Barack Obama. His was the first campaign that was possibly won using the new media (Youtube, twitter etc).

For the moment, I will remain as a tiny spot in this online world... which suits me fine.