look at how life has changed

I finally decided to take a break from work. By this, I meant that I resigned from work without looking for another one, stayed at home to just rest and do whatever it is that I want to do.

It felt really good in the very beginning because I finally had enough sleep. I finally had no deadlines looming and no responsibilities, no work related worries in the back of my mind that bugged me. For once in a very long time, I was free from all the mental and psychological shackles that bound me.

I believe that sometime in the future I will look back at this time at thank god that he gave me this time of rest because he was preparing me for something. He was giving me this lull for a reason. I could read the books I wanted to read, watch all the anime that I want, sleep all I want, play all the games that I want.

I also started to study the Bible a lot more, listened to sermons online and perhaps gotten to know the LORD a little better. Whilst I don't like to physically be at church and be subjected to all the hugs and handshakes from people that I do not know, I do want to be part of the sermons and worship.

I find it wierd that people are suddenly so friendly to everyone because it is church and then pretend that they do not exist after. I have also seen the examples from a friend that has walked the same path before and later get burnt out by doing too much "services" to the church. Well, churches are made of people and people have all sorts of agendas.

Of course, this is not that churches are bad. They are excellent places for community, service and worship as they should be. But like any other organization, they are subjected to the vagaries of a human organization.

For the moment, I prefer online sermons and worship rather than the physical ones. I'd rather not have the pressure to join in more things than I am willing to do.