Friday, June 30, 2006

Of being tired and disengaged.

I am so sick and tired of doing the things I do. Sometimes, I have this odd feeling that I plan too well for the future that I neglect the here and now... and neglect MY needs. My need to be appreciated, to be cared for and my need for the frivolous things in life.

I truly believe that in many ways I live a very regimental life. My weekdays in fixed time blocks are given to work. My weeknights are used for household chores, meeting up with people, exercise (I try) and sufficient sleep (rare). My weekends are alternately scheduled for time to spend with family and friends. I don't have enough ME time. Time where I can rest and do nothing, not think about family problem, not planning the future, not thinking about chores or work... that kind of quality ME time , to do whatever I want to do, guilt free. Heck, I don't even sleep late on Saturdays OR Sundays.

Whenever I start to feel the need for ME time. My travel bug will start to itch. I will want to go off into the big unknown and do my own thing.

Times like these makes me want to resign from my job and take a GAP year. Things aren't bad... I'm just in grave need of a sufficiently long break.

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