Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Not knowing what to make of things

Things haven't changed for me. I am getting more and more worried by the day. I pray, I study and I do all that I know to do and see as necessary.

This whole year has been a year of closed doors. Ok, it is more a year or doors opening and just as I am getting through, BAM! it slams in my face and I get hurt... over and over.

It is getting hard and I have changed.

My faith has changed too. It has waxed and waned at times. There are times I am resolute and hopeful but more often than not, I am sceptical. Right now, because I have been so hurt, my faith is falling off a precipice. After an intercession prayer yesterday with a close friend, I received a call for an interview.

Unfortunately, doors slamming in my face and walls has happened too often so I cannot find in myself the hope or joy.

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