picking up the pieces...

*sighs*

I have decided to stop moping around and just Trust.

Yet again. It's strange. Absolutely nothing has changed on the outside but this morning, I just felt different inside.

Yes the wait is still mind numbing and painful. Against all odds, doubt and inner turmoil, I still have faith.

Strange ain't it? When just a few days ago, I was having a major meltdown.

Maybe something good that I can immediately recognise and appreciate is coming my way. Why am I being so specific about being able to recognise and appreciate it? Well, I believe that as human beings we cannot begin to understand God's ways and he sometimes gives us prolonged periods of trials to test us.

For one, I would not want anymore trials for the moment, thank you very much. My spirit is very battered. I would like to have some outright good news that I can be cheered about.

I am but a weak human being, reconciled to try my best in this world but knowing full well that I am not intended for "greatness". My hopes and aspirations are really common and mundane.

All I want right now is to pick up the pieces and let my life get back on track.

Is that too much to ask?